February 21, 2005 I fell sick. Haa. I realised that at 4am. Woke up a lot of times. 4am+,5am+,7am+,9am+. Then I finally went to the doctor. I was so irritated. I didn't have the energy to talk, to move, to walk. I forced my every single movement. The doctor's an idiot. He doesn't care. I know he doesn't. All he cares is about earning money. Didn't want to speak in front of him. Or rather I couldn't. Then pain was unbearable. Then I went out of the room and started crying. Then the person at the counter called my name. All I did was stand there and cry till my mum came out of the toilet. And I cried more. Till they gave me painkiller. I havn't cried for a long time. Other than about Ange's company. Or for that game I loved so much. Why can't I just seem to forget about it. Bahh. Sheesh. I wanted to go back to work. Then I fell sick. asldfjka;sldfjlskfj. This KILLS. I can't laugh, I can't smile, I can't go out, I can't work, I can't play, I can't help but feel uneasy. I want to go out. But I'm sick. BAhhhhhhhhhh. Sickkkkkk. I have no idea what I did. It just happened overnight. Everything's just not right today. Sick! Don't you just love this word? Bah. Please let me feel better tomorrow. Oh great. I just realised. Tomorrow's class chalet. Darnnn. I'll be kicking my ass if I continue feeling this sick. I want to play. Drown my sorrows away with the sea. Ride with the wind. I still want to enjoy life. Results in a few days time. I don't even feel like I bother. adsfadslkj. Ok fine. I'm just feeling irritated now. I shall continue blogging when I'm in a better mood. Off for now.